In my previous post entitled, "A Call to Say No", I shared how the Lord had impressed upon me to give up on my dream to start my own screen printing business so that I could focus more on missions. In the back of my mind I knew starting a business would bog me down but I still thought I'd be able to do both. Of course, God knows me better than I know myself.
There's always been a burden for missions since I was 12 and there has been several opportunities given me to participate in several short term trips.
The Lord doesn't always work in our timing and in the ways we believe He should. After graduating FGBI, the only answer I received from God when seeking my next step was, "Wait. Work". I honestly had no idea what I was "waiting" for although my imagination did run a little wild. But "work" I did, and I have. It took sometime to find my place back at home but I knew that's where I needed to be so that, along with my other classmates from Goshen, we could help our pastor in different ministries of the church.
For the past 2 1/2 years there's been that question that has been a somewhat silent prayer, "Ok. I'm 'working' so what am I 'waiting' for?" It's been a joy to work in areas of designing, website building, writing, teaching, and more. Now, I've received the rest of my answer.
Our church just finished a week of powerful revival services with Rev. Neil Bridges, who fervently reached out to every soul in attendance, including me. On Wednesday night, he opened his Bible to read a few portions of Scripture, spoke passionately about God tugging on the heartstrings of some people, then had the song leader sing, "Have Thine Own Way". As he spoke, my heart started pumping in my chest knowing that God was pulling on my strings. There's without a doubt NO OTHER option more satisfying than saying, "Yes!" when God calls. That's why there was no hesitation to go to altar and lay down ALL.
So now He's revealed a little bit more of the Big Picture called Sonia's Life. "Work. Wait. Go."
I've accepted the call to full-time missions, praying for God to lead me to the right place. There's been several invitations but direction is needed to walk through the right door.
For the past month, a song that we sang in choir at FGBI has been rolling nonstop in my mind.
I'll go where You send me,
I'll follow where You lead me.
Lord, I'll be all I can be.
As you search this world over,
Don't look amy farther.
Lord, here am I.
I'm anticipating the next step!