"I am a failure!"
That phrase used to taunt me as a teenager and still attempts to scream through my mind these past few months.
Have you heard the same self-accusation lately?
There were times that I felt empty, utterly useless, or that I am not doing "enough". I realized in those moments that I was making comparisons of myself to those I considered successful and achievers of great things.
Was I being lazy? Definitely not. I can stay pretty busy, too busy sometimes.
I was comparing my abilities, accomplishments, social status, and physical appearances to those who are achieving wonderful goals and changing lives through amazing ministries.
"What am I doing with my life?" I would ask myself. I am still trying to find my place in a new community, teach developmentally delayed children, and strive to be qualified to direct a ministry that is teaching English in a community still foreign to me.
Will I ever "feel" qualified? Probably not. But will I do my best to work in the places God has led me to with the strength and abilities He has granted me? You betcha!
Have you ever "felt" fully qualified for a task or new responsibility that is thrust upon you? To be qualified does not mean that one has to be perfect or extraordinary. Isn't that a relief?!
My name is Amber Marshall. I graduated from Free Gospel Bible Institute in 2019. I left Bible school with an overwhelming desire to help others, but, like many, I wondered how I could. This blog is my chance to do that using my passion for writing. I pray that anything that is published on this website ministers and blesses others!